Addictions Therapist

Well, I’ve fallen in love with this guy who’s amazing and perfect in all ways that meets the eyes. He makes me feel amazing and I’ve never loved anyone the way I love him. I knew he had a past, I knew he’d done drugs in the past. I thought that he was over that. Well, last Wednesday I got a call from his mom telling me he had been picked up. A parole violation. He was put on parole after released from prison. Okay, the things I’ve said so far are bad, but he is a good person. I believe underneath everything. I didn’t know he wasn’t allowed to be in Ohio, the whole time he was supposed to be in Michigan. Also, his mom had found heroin in his coat pocket after the police took him. He’d started using again for the past couple of weeks before he got picked up. So many things he’d been lying about. He was stealing from his family, and he may have even stole from me. He lied to me about a lot of things that I just can’t believe. I don’t know what to do, right now I feel so alone because I made plans with him. I feel so alone because there is absolutely no one I can go to that will understand this. I can’t tell my mom, she only knows half of the story. I have been thinking about going to church or something, I’m so desperate to feel some sort of ‘okay.’ I don’t want to leave him because I feel like his problem will only get worse, but people have told me that once a heroin addict always a heroin addict. I just don’t want to believe that’s true. I need hope. And fyi, I am nineteen and he is twenty two.